am SOOO ready to hold all three of my babies. I miss my girls SOOOO
much. This is the longest that we have been apart and to say it was
easy, would be a lie. It was hard. But, so worth it. Madison was so
worth it. A dream come true. Our family is finally complete. Today,
although there were a couple of things I wanted to get that I wasn't
able to, I decided NOT to go back to Shamian Island today. I have spent
my quota and I know that if I go back, I will just buy more unnecessary
purchases lol. Today we will spend a quiet day, packing up and winding
down. I will miss China. For some reason, when I am here, I feel like I
am home. Not the hotels and the hustle and bustle of eating out
everyday. But on our quiet days where we spend just exploring the area
and having fun, it is home away from home. It is an odd feeling,
difficult to explain. Tomorrow I will take Madison away from everything
that she has known up to this point. It is a bittersweet feeling. I am
thrilled to get the opportunity to be this sweet girl's Mommy, but I
can't help but to think about her birth family today. I often think
about all of my girl's birth families. I pray that they are safe and
that they feel peace with the decisions that they have made. I pray for
them, and for Madi. That SHE will have peace with the decisions that
have been made for HER. She hasn't had any say about any of this. I
hope that I can explain things to her when she is able to understand.
She is feeling more and more comfortable with each passing day. It was
clear to me when I told her "no" about something this morning and she
walked away from me and then dropped to the floor. LOL. She will learn
quickly that doesn't fly with this Mama. I am thankful that she is
feeling comfortable enough to be a little sassy with me, but I hope that
she waits another day or two so we can get through the airports and
flights without too much drama. LOL.
Here are a couple of pictures I snapped this morning. This is the view
we see each morning when we eat breakfast. It is just beautiful. The
weather has been gorgeous. Looking forward to coming home, but not to
the frigid temperatures I hear we are having.
1 comment:
I am so glad things are going well and that you've enjoyed China. I have so many feelings about Raimey's birth mom, too, just wondering if she'll ever know what she's missing. It breaks my heart that every joy she gives me is one that her birth mom gave up. This is our first adoption so it's all so new to me. Madi is just beautiful and it will be fun to see her blend into your family when you get back to the states. Love to all of you, Angie
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